For years I have been trying to find the balance in my life, sorting through my passions, my work, my hobbies, my duties and chores, wondering how the hell to do it all. And survive. Somehow I could never quite reach that balanced stage, no matter how hard I tried. Organize, make lists, discipline, clean, more lists, yes I am the list queen, and I do love jotting down my lists. But I ran out of ‘want to”.
Burned out…tired…broke…my adrenals were shot. What to do, or what to give up. Besides knowing that I had to take care of myself, because I wanted to, because I love how I feel when I feel good! That is a given. But periods of reevaluating, writing, listening, reading, and moving (both house and my body!), gave me a different picture.
A picture of life that I wanted, and wanted to make happen. An adventurous life, full of love, laughter, enchantment, beauty, dance, words, a sense of brilliance, friendship, great work that I’m intensely passionate about, tons of creativity and the time to be, and the people to do it all with! Oh, and prosperity, on many levels… Life!
Turns out I just am damn passionate about living, and there is lots of living to do! Who puts the pressure on me, but me? Sure, I have to pay the mortgage, and eat…but I have to do what my heart and soul says, what feeds me. So I redirected…plans and no plans, ideas, and gut instincts…
Now I can reflect from a better place. What I have planned and not planned, my new work, my new passion, re-passioned! Woo hoo. The past few days, I have finally had a few moments to really breath, and it becomes clearer in my brain. Some of the new projects are done, and are amazing, some are in gear and I am soooo excited, right now the work has slowed down, on purpose, I planned this down time. Finally…oh baby…what a delight…
To have space, light, alone time, I can hear myself sing, or whisper, or pray, or just listen. Life is f^&*ing beautiful. I’m in love…
One of my heroes, Chris Guillebeau (the Art of Nonconformity, http://chrisguillebeau.com/), you’ve heard me talk of him before… well he says,
“I have no interest in living a balanced life. I want a life of adventure.”
So, there you go…
Danielle La Porte, (http://www.daniellelaporte.com/) says “…there is no such thing as life balance.”
Who knew? All those self-help books tell you to get in balance. Uh uh…nope, that’s not it. So when you run out of “want to”, are you trying too hard to be in balance? Look deeper at what you truly want, truly desire deep in your gut, eh? And just try living what your heart says…make it happen babe…
who loves you?
